Healing with a Chronic Illness

Healing with a Chronic Illness

Often, those who reach out to me have a chronic illness, and, along with seeking support and guidance spiritually, they are trying to overcome that illness or to improve their overall health status.

I personally went through years of healing Lyme disease, and a handful of other illnesses that commonly accompany Lyme disease, such as neuropathies, brain-fog, asthma, and various infections.

I like to frame my path as “Healing ‘with’ Lyme disease” rather than ‘from’ because I embraced each of my struggles as a soul choice–as my participation, this incarnation, with the common experiences of humanity at this time. I always say, “There’s enough pain go to around, and we each get our little part to carry.” I would find that the willingness to die, or rather, the acceptance that, if unabated, the current infection would lead to death, were important cornerstones on my transformative path and recovery. I truly put myself into God’s hands and said, your will be done.

Unfortunately, our current medical system has many limitations, and many attempts are made with well-intended doctors but with no success.

Here is how what I offer in my session can help:

  • For healing, it is crucial to get in touch with your “well self,” with the person you are without the illness. We can forget our “well self” and unconsciously identify with the illness. Hypnosis facilitates this transition.

  • We can go deeply into the tissue of the body, wherever inflammation is at work, whether in the lungs, the joint, muscles, or brain, and calm the inflammation. We can have a conversation with the body, reminding it of how it feels and functions when fully healthy.

  • We can resolve old emotional injuries, feelings of being stuck in a way of thinking or feeling. Hypnosis allows the brain and the mind to discover its own way of releasing these patterns.

  • These are essential aspects of healing. Dr. Klinghardt who has helped thousands of chronically ill persons recover includes some form of hypnosis therapy as being key to full recovery, as unless we repattern the brain to embody feelings of wellness, the illness will reoccur.

What you need to do:

You have to investigate the concrete conditions of your life that undermine your health. For instance, dust and mold in the building where you live or work. Foods and beverages that cause inflammation. Exercise—key to restoring optimal metabolic function to your cells.

If you are willing to do your part in the “clean-up,” I am happy to offer this work on the spiritual side.

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8 Billion Souls Gathering for the Great Learning

8 Billion Souls Gathering for the Great Learning

My heart breaks open every moment as I take in the beauties and the sufferings of these times.

If you are not aware of the ways that our industrial lifestyle has at first slowly and then quickly accelerated the imbalance of the planet’s systems, you may be recognizing it now.

It seems that this truly is our Atlantis Moment, a time when our flaws, misdeeds and selfishness come back as consequences and we see them clearly.

This is a time to draw close to our inner connection to Source, to God, and to our core sense of self; a time to stay mindfully centered and aware.

Eight Billion humans — as many humans live today as have lived through all times on this planet. Have we all come to gather and experience this Atlantis Moment together?

It seems so.

I wish great peace to all who visit this website looking to establish a deeper meditative practice and to cultivate quiet sacred inner space. Thank you for your spiritual striving.




The Challenge of the Witness

The Challenge of the Witness

In most Eastern styles of meditation, we speak of “the witness”: the inner eye that sees the internal and external world. During meditation, the witness watches our thoughts and emotions pass by. It notices states and changes in the body and mind. In daily life, the witness also picks up on the states, thoughts, and feelings of those around us.

In deeper meditation, when a level of alive stillness is achieved, we are directed to turn the attention of the witness away from what is being observed and toward that which is creating the stream of awareness, that which we might call Self, Atman, God, Source, Universe or other.

I have been disturbed, many years now, by what I witness in the world–and I suppose that you, my reader, have been disturbed, as well. The various nations, philosophies and religions seem set on destructive paths.

And so, I wondered today if I could find a way to communicate some of the similarities that bind us together as one humanity, and so I looked for a metaphoric description of “the witness” in a religious text. Immediately, the Bhagavad Gita came to mind. In this sacred Hindu text, two Kingdoms, related by blood, are set to engage in war: one army on one side of a great plain, and the second army, posed to go, on the other.

It is just before dawn. The God Krishna and a revered warrior-prince, Arjuna, stand together in Arjuna’s chariot. Now Arjuna cries out to Krishna in despair: Why must there be war? Why conflict between families? 

The answer, as I recall its meaning from my reading, long ago, is this: it is none of Arjuna’s business to know the why’s and wherefores of the world, for conflict and war are inherent to the human drama, and each of us has many lives and repeat many karmas.

But Krishna also tells Arjuna: you can detach yourself from the drama. You are with me, after all, in this moment, this time, and place. Here is where your focus should rest. Witness me.

As Arjuna turns his attention away from the war and toward his friend, Krishna reveals himself in his glory and, if you are sensitive to the beauty of language, the description of the glory of Krishna is utterly transporting.

In essence, the story is this: The witness part of us is called to become still, to detach from the conflicts of the mind and emotions and from the conflicts of society and the troubles of the world.

At each moment, the witness can turn to its godly companion and be utterly transported into a universe of peace, beauty, and revelation.

I just wanted to share this thought here. It is not meant to be taken as advice or guidance. 

Religion can open a door to Spiritual Meditation

Religion can open a door to Spiritual Meditation

Religion can open a door to Spiritual Meditation

Once your nervous system has accustomed itself to the meditative experience, you will find that sitting for a few minutes, just sitting, allowing the mind to settle into the here and now, to be aware of what is–allows that adjustment of the nervous system to transpire. It feels like a deep alignment, your energy field harmonizes and adjusts, and begins to integrate into itself whatever is jarring and disruptive from your life. Just sitting, doing nothing, allows this to happen. You feel better: adjusted, aligned, and just better.

Spiritual meditation, as I have come to understand it, has another dimension to it. To come into contact with this dimension, religion is helpful. Religion imparts a sense of meaning or purpose to your life; it gives you a sense that you have something to do, for society, in service, in love and light, for others, and for God. It imparts a sense of place, your small place in a larger scheme of things. It imparts a way to understand your little self as part of a larger self, to have respect for yourself, and to be authentically humble. 

My two teachers, Joe and Appa, allowed me to feel this difference in their presence. Joe would begin the RoseWay meditation with an invocation, and then asking us to say, “In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit… and your name.” So we added our own name at the end. In the name of me. In the name of my true self and my incarnation as part of God’s Light and Plan. This set the tone for the higher meditation: but only because we had grown up in this religious thematic, and it encompassed an entire set of metaphors, symbols, and understandings that we were taught–if we were lucky–as children in an embodied way.

So it can be a start to a deeper meditation and offer a spiritual connection in a way that “just sitting” rarely does.

Perhaps more on this in later posts. 


The Darkness of the Pandemic, the Beauty of the Arctic, a Prayer for Survival, a Poem of Realistic Expectations

The Darkness of the Pandemic, the Beauty of the Arctic, a Prayer for Survival, a Poem of Realistic Expectations

In these times, we become aware that the darkness is more dense and more deceptive than we’ve consciously experienced before. Apparently, those who know the hard facts believe they must hold them back, whether because they themselves can not face them, or because they believe that we cannot face them, or both. The darkness of enforced ignorance, or willful ignorance, and of designed deception is one of the greatest downfalls of modern humanity.

On the one hand, we have a disease let loose from a laboratory being chased by vaccines that are not as effective or as safe as promised, with alternative treatments used successfully around the world actively suppressed and belied. But an even grave danger is the tipping point of oceanic warming and the thinning and loss of arctic ice, which acts as a mirror, reflecting heat away from the ocean. Record levels of flash floods, heat spells, and freezing weather plus a lack of bees and water pose an imminent threat to the world’s food supply and endanger the survival of entire populations. 

If we came together to actualize the meer reflection project, we might have a chance at staving off the worse consequences of oceanic warming and loss of ice. Yet this discussion is not happening.

I pray now for a humankind that insists on knowing and understanding the facts and that acts to protect life on earth.

Below is a video of a poem, “No Regrets,”written by Danna Faulds and read by a climate scientist Beril Sirmacek with music by Frank Weening.

In this video, the question: what if this is the end, is met by a realistic acceptance of probabilities: she has reconciled herself to the probability of irreversible climate change, with its devastating consequences–but she embraces her spirituality, and lives fully and with heart.  

What if it were the end of the world. . .

What if it were the end of the world. . .

What if the worst predictions were true, and the planet is about to go into climate-extremes-overdrive, with alternating patterns of extreme heat, extreme cold, extreme drought, and extreme floods, increasing in ferocity year by year.

As you read these words, you might realize that we are already in that pattern. Extreme climate patterns are already upon us. 

I would not be up-to-date on this subject, were not a good friend’s brother a teacher on these matters. Following his posts now for several years, it is clear that what many believe is an overblown narrative is actually not. It is very real and the pattern is only getting worse, quickly, year by year, season by season. 

The sadness of this is often overwhelming. I can tune in to the species that are going extinct, the plants, animals, insects, even the microflora in the soil. It feels like tiny lights are being extinguished, one by one, and then all together, and threads of the fabric of this matrix just pulled out and disappearing.

So why then are we here? If the cycle, as it were, on this unbelievably beautiful planet is drawing to a close, what are we doing here? 

Many are leaving. Whether the death occurs in the so-called First World because of illness or despair during the lockdowns of the pandemic, or if the deaths are in so-called Third-World countries, which is where the worst heat is striking. These countries have been catapulted into economic collapse as a result of our lockdowns, leaving millions of people to starve.

Why are we here? Why be born into this time and place, to see, cause and endure this suffering?

Today, meditating on this question, I got a kind of answer. We are here to be as aware as we can be about the causes and consequences, and we are here to be the best selves we can be, to turn to our God and to our deepest spiritual resources, to be kind and good in the face of hardship, and to ask the hard questions and find the hard answers, whatever they might be in any person’s unique situation.

It is helpful to remember that we opt-in, as it were, to the circumstances into which we are born and live. However hard or relatively easy the circumstances, they contain just the right challenges for our soul at this time of great tribulation.

Perhaps, for many of us, the hardships we endure now are an opportunity to lighten our karmic burden, to recognize, deeply feel and work through the patterns of multiple incarnations, lightening the backpack as we travel on.

It is a rare time, a time of rarified consciousness, we not only look our own death in the eyes, but at the end of an entire cycle. 

Go into your calm inner place of oneness with self and with God.

Go there as often as you can, sit, breathe, remember who you are and where you are, and then remember your eternal, timeless and placeless self. 

Acknowledge that this time and place is exactly where we are meant to be. 


I do still have hope and I count on our continuing on–if not on this planet, then on another. We are a beautiful, creative, heartfelt soul group, and we will find our way.


Today’s Atlantis Challenge

Today’s Atlantis Challenge

We stand at the end of the age. Before us lies devastation–for humanity, for the planet–and beyond that is a new beginning of which we can only begin to have intuitive glimpses.

Atlantis fell, according to the clairvoyant Edgar Cayce, after their genetically altered creations and their energy power systems turned disastrous. After their continent and culture were destroyed, they traveled throughout the world, meeting indigenous peoples and forming new societies and cultures.

Today, these same souls (including you and me) have incarnated with the purpose of growth. We are confronting old ideas, coming to terms with wrong choices, behavior patterns, and moral mistakes.

Much of humanity is enveloped in darkness now as it has become increasingly difficult and complex to discern truth from propaganda. It feels impossible, some days, to see at all clearly through the fog of deception. Yet, we are actually engaged in an unbelievably productive and steep learning cycle as we, each of us in our own ways, confront our moral dilemmas, pay off past karmic debts, and learn to stay connected and focused on our spiritual source.

We might call this time the Collective Night of the Soul. Prayers are ascending. Souls are seeking their deeper truths and knowings. It is a tremendous and new wave of energy that we are building.

It is helpful to remember that each person who is here, regardless their age, or struggles, or suffering, they did agree and choose to be here at this time. It is wonderful to begin to comprehend how our own understanding and maturation is unfolding through these challenges, as we conceive meaningful choices and actions.

If you would like a stabilizing hand to hold as you seek your own answers, seek your soul or spirit’s guidance, or as you reconnect to god or to source, in whichever way you define and experience that connection, please reach out and we’ll see if I can help.

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Green is the Color of Heart Energy

Green is the Color of Heart Energy

Imagine if you have the scintillating feeling of green heart energy flowing throughout your body and mind, and can feel a calm, cleansing rush of pure life force in every cell. This is an example of the kind of experience that my clients have in spiritual hypnosis. It is a deep sense of coming back to oneself, of remembering who we really are. We get in touch with core-self, the being we are through eternity.

Once we experience our own deep aliveness, we can learn to return to this state and, with gratitude and humility, refer to it as a starting point for meditation, for connection and communication, for being in the present moment–whatever that moment holds.

Our heart energy becomes a “given” that is here for us, and that we can cultivate–though we must never take it for granted. As soon as we take it for granted, we are in an ego-state and have lost the true connection.

Cultivate grounded, embodied self-knowing with heart energy

My teacher Appa used talk about the Culture of the Heart: being in touch with who we really are at the level of the heart does not make us weak or passive but rather gives us strength to be courageous, and to integrate this state of heart energy into all aspects of our life.

Of course, it is not as easy as it sounds–at least, initially. With practice, however it is the only kind of life that makes sense and so, with time, connecting into core-self and heart-self becomes second nature.  Spiritual hypnosis is a fantastic tool on this path as it really brings this state into focus as an embodied experience. Refer to this state as a starting point for meditation, connection to self and others.

Strengthening the Spirit, Body, and Mind as we face Authoritarian Forces

The battle of “good vs evil,” that humanity has faced in different ways throughout history, is once more out in the open.

Rudolf Steiner wrote that our species has been under attack for many thousands of years by entities who wish to control us and live off our energy parasitically. They try to do this by dimming our soul-awareness and by turning humans into robots.

What does that mean, to turn us into robots?

It means to harden our hearts, and cut off our internal connection to the divine and to our own deepest nature and intelligence. It means to brainwash us into living according to rules and routines, rather than to live fully, with passion, compassion, intelligence and creative responsiveness.

The attack is now once again out in the open where all can see. Around the world, people are on the street, are fighting legal battles, and are fighting information battles online. It is time to take a stand, each of us.

For this, we must build our physical and spiritual strength and resilience.

For Inner Connection:

The two books that I sent out into the world are useful in these times, as they keep that connection aligned and strong. The practices of prayer through the chakras affirm to us who we truly are, get us in touch with our true origin and our true potential.

Just sitting silently each day is also an essential practice, as this discipline allows the brain/ mind a venue within which it can become stronger. Nurturance also comes from reading spiritual books, listening to uplifting music, and enjoying laughter.  

For Bodily Protection:

The spike protein is highly inflammatory; it creates injuries in the tissues of the body and brain. It is, therefore, crucial to use very strong anti-inflammatory foods and supplements, every day.  The spike protein can be transmitted through infection, but also through viral shedding from those who recently accepted a shot. After receiving the shot, the spike proteins are released into the body, where they travel and damage tissue. Depending on where they land in the body, and on the underlying inflammatory predisposition of the body, injuries will result. 

Essential strong anti-inflammatory supplements are:

I have recently begun using C60, together with capsules of resveratrol, ashwagandha, and turmeric. This is a wonderful combination for the heart and spirit as well.

As well, you’ll want to avoid food and environmental influences that cause inflammation. This can be gluten, household and garden chemicals, exposure to electro-magnetic fields, to smart devices and smart meters, etc. 

For Immune Resilience:

To build resilience to the virus, try to get your blood levels of vitamin D3 up to 60 or above. Studies show that persons with high levels have a milder course of illness and are far less likely to need hospitalization.

If you are overweight, immune-suppressed, or if your levels are chronically low, it can take several months of high-dose to increase your blood levels, but it will happen. 5,000 – 15,000 iu a day is not unusal–but you must also take vitamin K2, to protect yourself from possible calcium deposits in the blood vessels.

All across the Internet, you can find the same list of recommended supplements, along with the reasons they are advised.

Basically, these supplements are: Vitamin C, Vitamin D3 and K2, Quercetin and Zinc.

For Information and Human Connection:

Substack and Telegram are offering censorship-free discourse. Doctors and others who are being de-platformed elsewhere for opposing the corrupt narrative of the medical authorities are gathering here, but also on Odysee, Rumble, Gab, Brighteon, and elsewhere. It requires more of an effort to keep up with the new developments with this spread of platforms, but that is what we do now. Being informed is so important, and knowing what others are doing–the legal processes, the protests, and the new discoveries pertaining to protection and healing–theses empower us to be unafraid and to make fully informed decisions.

Today, I enjoyed Toby Roger’s free public substack, and at the bottom, he provides links to others who are a “must follow.” This is a good place to start.


Finding One’s True Self

Recently, I was asked to help a colleague find her true self.

What does that mean?

My colleague had psychic experiences as a child and young adult. They were disturbing, and she had to “turn them off” in order to function. She adapted to a mind-oriented way of being and went into a study of hard science. Then life sent her some hard shakes and she began to question who she had become, what her values are. She turned to prayer.

She wants to know how to find her true self – the self she was before she forced herself to have a materialistic, atheist mindset.

The request to help someone find their true self is paradoxical because in the truest spiritual sense, finding our true self feels more like a dissolution of self into a larger whole – the experience of bliss of oneness.

This merging into our true self is so unlike what the mind can conceptualize and comprehend that, famously, every spiritual school agrees it is “beyond words.”

Experiencing this true self is, in a sense, a psychic experience, in that it involves the development of subtle energetic perception – which might be called psychic perception, and that comes about through spiritual practices.

However, the meaning here of “psychic” has little to do with being able to receive visions, knowledge, or insights about other people or places, or to be in contact with the deceased or with spirits from the other side.

This true self is beyond all that. And, as is said in some yogic traditions, when the siddhis, or “psychic, occult talents” develop, as they will if you do enough breathwork and meditation, they are a distraction and a temptation. We acquire these skills as part of our perceptual range, but they are just that: skills – and not an end-goal in themselves.

Usually, when I am asked about finding one’s true self, what is meant is finding one’s purpose in life. Again, this can be a misleading question, even when we ask it to ourselves with deep sincerity.

When we incarnate, we come with a purpose. It can be something large, to carry out or participate in a great cause. Or it can be something small, such as learning to be less self-absorbed and to humbly dedicate oneself to the wellbeing of others. (In which case, the preoccupation with one’s purpose is the opposite of what we should be learning.)

I like Michael Newman’s descriptions of souls and their evolution, the idea that as souls progress, we are drawn to develop different skills and talents.

Some of us are healers, some are ethicists, some scientists, some are involved in the care of the earth, and so on. We come back again and again to complete our skillset, but also to develop our “character,” to mature in our depth, our ability to hold a larger perspective, and a willingness to sacrifice. (I think I just described my own challenges…)

I suggest reading Newman’s Journey of Souls and Destiny of Souls, to offer perspective to this question. Newman himself offers “Life between Life” hypnosis. He says that when people experience who they are between lives, they get a sense of their purpose, and gain more energy and confidence to take on the challenges of this present life.

I offer hypnotherapy too, along with mindfulness guidance and the RoseWay meditation. I also find that guiding a client or student into a deep sense of self – indescribable experience – the result is more energy and deep confidence for this life today.